The Aftermath of The Affair: My Pain, My wounds
How My Children Experienced The Aftermath of the Affair
Above all, I am beyond proud of the women I am raising. I am so blessed to have such strong daughters. As a result my life has been so much more rewarding with them in it. The strength they bring me is beyond hugs and kisses a mother cherishes. The looks on their faces was unbearable. The tears that they cried I wish a thousand times I cried it for them. The innocence of growth in a loving home washed away.
My eldest was the backbone of this family along with my niece in that trying time. My niece moved here to start her own journey. While she was with us we got to experience so much joy. She was my little light of joy sharing some amazing memories. But also some very sad times. Besides finding herself her own prince charming, she found her forever family. I am proud of the woman she is. While I am not proud of the experience we shared. I am beyond grateful for her love and care she provided.
My children endured a phase I’d like to call “the why phase”. So many questions as to why their father did this to me. In their minds they didn’t think it was possible. Along with the rest of the family and friends. I was the first in line to take the hit. And then my girls, hit with “Why”. It’s still a daily struggle and I think will now be for the rest of their lives. How do I still make them believe in Love?
My Wounds Of Suffering
“My wounds of heartbreak” doesn’t sound so bad right? When you compile that over the course of your life experiences it’s pretty darn bad. I don’t like to think of myself as a wounded puppy. But the truth is I have so much hurt in me. That true love is what kept me going in this marriage. At least that is what I thought it was. And I am trying to find out if it still is. Some days the battle of the pain versus the wound seems so overwhelming. Even more so when I am alone, those days are pretty bad. On days like that I just need a good cry. Every time I post a new blog I feel like crying. In the meantime I hope this helps someone and we can both sail on to a better place mentally.
Thank you so much for joining me today on Kendra’s Journey to Wholeness. I hope this post has inspired you to perhaps create your own blog. Or if you have any thoughts or experience you’d like to share, feel free to leave a comment. And if you think you need help and talk to someone betterhelp.com was my resource. Remember healing is a process, and you deserve to take every step at your own pace. Until next time, take care of yourself! Thank you for taking the time to read. I’m grateful to have you as part of this community.