The Affair And Lies Of Life
The Moment of the Affair
When I first discovered my husbands affair I was cooking. The mere thought of discovering something so heinous I thought was going to be the death of me. On April 20Th of 2023 my life changed. I did not know anything about heartache for a long time till I felt this. My husband works for a company that requires little to no traveling. So when situations approach and he is required I am always his cheerleader. His family supported in all the ways. I always wanted to be the best mom and wife.
I want to be as statuesque in my own way. Even though I stand at a mere 5ft. That day was different, I just knew it. It had been brewing for some time. We had still be doing everything routine in the house. Seeing the kids off to school. Then he would be off to work. And in the safe place I stood, mom wife and caretaker to everyone.
The Calm before the Storm
Over the past months things changed between us. We didn’t go out much. We didn’t talk much. I had surgery and I knew I was going to be out of commission. And being the wife that I am I figured be entertained while I can’t do my part. Little did I know that it would transform my life completely. Changed the way I view men, sex and marriage almost in an instant. It felt like it all happened in the blink of an eye. One minute I am cooking. The next minute I am crying on the driveway of my girlfriend’s house.
Not A Normal Feeling
It seemed like a normal day. I was in the kitchen cooking. He came home and put his things away. He said hi to the kids. As usual, he went into the room and laid on the bed with his phone. I remained in the kitchen getting dinner ready. He came into the kitchen and said I need to make another trip to Colombia. He had earlier take a trip in the beginning of April right before my birthday.
Little did I know it was not a business trip but a planned affair. It hurts just typing this out. The feelings are so private and terrifying. He came into the kitchen. He said he was going to be taking another trip. This time it would be for 7 days. I was instantly caught off guard. I refused to think that he needed to go back so quickly. My gut instinct just did not sit right with me. I put on a fight and said NO.
Still can’t believe it. Still think what you went through and are still going through is harder than what I went through. I also didn’t know my friend was such a talented writer.
You deserve better and I hope he’s doing everything and anything to try and earn back your trust. I hope for the you have the strength to do whatever make you as a woman whole again. Spend the time you need working on yourself. And when your done healing and growing from this, maybe he’ll be lucky enough to still have you in his life as his wife, or maybe he will have to experience the losing you and knowing it is all his fault.
I’m going to PR, but when I get back we should do lunch.
Love you.
Thank you so much! this comment means to world to me! I appreciate all the love and support. Much more to come! Enjoy PR I hope that it gives you some joy!
Love you too!